A bitch to our friendship.
A 4 years friendship that has ended,because of my own attitude.
Of my own mouth.
Because of me being a bitch.
As i lay down at night,i reminisce back our friendship.
Of how we went together,for breakfast,for lunch,for dinner,for movie,etc.
Of how irritating i am to you,of how u gotta listen to me whining,listen to me when im crying,when im crapping,and of coz u gotta tolerate my nonsense to you,of me picking a fight w me.
Yes,we quarrel like fuck,saying bad things of each other,but yet,we are back like normal the next day.
U gave me chances because of our friendship.
And the next thing,we quarrel again.
And we back like normal again.
Yes,i gave u nonsense,yet u still treat me nicely.
U took me as a small sister to you.
But,me,being a bitch,only give u nonsense all along.
You always support me on whatever thing im gg through.
Example:love,work etc3.
You always tell me to keep going.
You never failed to cheer me up,on whatever things i do.
Cheer me up always.
But,me?
I only tell u to give up,telling u shes straight,u cant get her,when me myself know u are crazy in love with her..
What wrong with me?
Maybe im jealous?
No,i have mood swings.
Whenever im in a very bad mood,i vent it on you.
And,u being patience,just listen to it.
And forgive me.
I knw i makes mistakes to u hell alot.
But u knw,i do love our fs,i dont wanna lose it like that.
Every humans make mistakes,im nt perfect.
And now,we didnt contact for quite some time,and i feel smtg is nt right,something is missing.
And it was ur presence,our friendship,that really cheer me up,
U told me,u cant tolerate me anymore,u wanna throw away our friendship,u wont regret at all.It do hurts me alot,tho i knw whats ur meaning.
But,i just wanna say,i did ask my last forgiveness,since u has alrdy wanna throw away our fs,my alst forgiveness,will u forgive me,before i perish from this world?
I gotta accept that our fs has gone,i love the fs,but atleast forgive me for last.
And i wont disturb u anymore,thats what u asked from me anyway.
Will you?
Labels: Friendship, Haziq.
